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I don't deserve..........

Sun May 3, 2009, 10:59 PM
Well.... hehehe!! It's been quiet a while since I visited this page!! Hehehe!!! And it's been two years since I won the poetry contest as a champion twice.... well that was... that was quiet unexpected... I remembered when I first brought the medal to my mom she was mad of me because I failed math! heheh!! Well I guess that's the prize to pay hehehe!! She told me that I'd rather loose the competition than to bring her a failing grade! Heheh!! You know what hurts me more is that I went up the stage during the awarding ceremony, my name was announced in the auditorium and when I went up the stage the lady ( a school faculty maybe) hesitated to give me the medal and thought I was the first place, I told her I was the champion and she was wearin this plastik smile of her's and you can bearly see it in her face... when she gave me the medal I felt her hands were hard and really hesitating to give me the award.... after the awards, I came back to our classroom and told them that I won then everyone came shouting and shouting with rejoice.... at that time christmass was approaching that's why there's soo many decorations around making the environment soooo homey...It was the time too that I received a failing mark... I began cryin and cryin sooo hard that everyone can bearly hear it... IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I FAILED IN MY WHOLE AND ENTIRE LIFE.... I failed math... well I rushed to my A.S.A.P family and started cryin to KUYA GATCHY.. I told him that I failed and I was a total mess.. I was shy cause he was my crush and he was there wiping my tears away... he kissed my forehead and said; "ok lang yan! next time galingan mo na lang! at besides nanalo ka naman eh at isang subject lang naman yan kaya kaya mu yan!"
A.S.A.P family gathered around me and comforted me.. I felt like I was home... a home where I can be myself... Well I went home and heared my mom doing the SEREMONYAS thingy again....I felt bad sooo much... well I looked at myself wearin the medal, I looked back at the medal and told myself.... " do I really deserve you? DIANNE and PATTY-KUN would have done it better than I did.. their achievers! Unlike me, a none talented looser who had just won because of luck.. or maybe just a freakin looser... I don't know!!! I Heared of patty's art from my friend and she told me how great her poems were, compared to me.. maybe they'll beat me if they joined the competition too patty-kun and dianne... HUHUHUH!!!! Im no match!!!!! flanked out zero!!! Well I won again the last year's poetry competition but.... it felt.... like I don't deserve it... no one really cared about me! I mean common!! What would the world do to a hopeless looser junkyardy art like me! HAHAHA! :no: :sniff: :stupidme:

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:icondj-uni-mekaju:
I think your mom should've been proud that you did well in something! >8I Especially something you tried hard in. =( :cling: :heart:

And I'm glad you had some friends to comfort you, those are such nice friends. :thanks: And yes, you DID deserve that medal because you worked for it. :thanks: I know I don't know you but I'm proud that you succeeded in something. :thanks: :hug: :heart: :cuddle: And don't feel bad about failing, it happens to everyone once in a while. =( I've failed many times, but I'm doing pretty great because I tried to fix my mistakes and I didn't feel bad anymore. <=3 Everything will be okay. :hug: :heart: :cuddle: And don't you dare say your art is junk! D8< Everyone has the right to express themselves and art is a form of expression no matter how good or how bad one thinks it is! And you're NOT a loser! People love you and care for you, and everyone deserves to be treated with love. =( I'm only saying this because I care, even though I'm a total stranger to you, I care because I can't bare to see others unhappy - EVERYONE deserves true happiness. =( :cling: :heart: I hope you're not feeling this way anymore and that you're feeling better. And if you need someone to lift you up I can be there for you. :thanks:

Sincerely,
A Random Deviant Who Cares :heart:

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uuhmm.. I dunno what to say but jee tnxz! hahah! don't know ya but my heart's bleeding tnx is on ya! tnx again! :boogie:

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The world needs more people like you in it

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:icondj-uni-mekaju:
It's okay. :aww: Aaawwee, and you're welcome! :iconawwwplz: Glad I could help. :thanks: :hug: :heart: :cuddle:

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adik ka! sau un kung sau! wag mong iisipin na hndi mo deserve, pinaghirapan mo un kya ka nanalo! dpat proud ka! adek, humanda ka sa akin sa school!
:icondeviuoscharm:
ehehehe!!! to talaga oh! ehehe!! mas magaling ka pa nga kesa sa akin eh! hahahah!!

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--A song might be tragic for a dread full sorrow but to bear within the pain is to recognize the image of the new spring after the winter had gone.
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Lady Gaga! wag mo akong ganyanin!
:icondeviuoscharm:
UUTOT UTOT MO!!! HAHAHA!!!

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--A song might be tragic for a dread full sorrow but to bear within the pain is to recognize the image of the new spring after the winter had gone.
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